Wasting my time...
I was in a very, very serious relationship with someone I had been friends with for about 5 years prior to our coupling. When he was deployed, I though it was going to be the end of us because he was going to be gone for 15 months, and I couldn't imagine keeping close while being 8 thousand miles apart.But we did it. I poured my heart and soul and all the energy I could into that relationship. If anything, Iraq only brought us closer. He was dealing with all the difficulties of being at war, and took a lot of his anger out on me (never physically, but emotionally). I endured, because I knew that there was no way in heaven or earth that I could possibly understand what he was going through. And I loved him.
He got back into the states, and was instantly reassigned to a post in the south. I saw him once before he had to leave again, and then spent many tear filled nights packing up his apartment and sending it all to him. He said we'd make it. He said that if we could survive Iraq, we could survive anything.
2 weeks ago, he broke up with me. Because "the geography is just too hard."
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What. The. Fuck.
I spend 15 months nurturing our relationship, dealing with the heartache of never knowing if he'd be killed, and being woken up at 3 and 4 in the morning because it was the only time he could call me... all that without complaint. With total and complete support. I handled all his fiances while he was away, arranged for everything he couldn't do himself because of time zone issues or lack of communication ability. I pissed off my neighbors by keeping his sports car parked in front of my house (we're not really supposed to park on the street).
All for him to leave me because the distance between Maine and Mississippi was just too much. Really?
So. I've either been USED like no other, or... well.. I don't even want to THINK about what else it could be.
Fuck. I am past being angry. I'm just in quiet disbelief. And I wanted to vent somewhere, because I haven't told any of my friends/family.
Fuck, fuck, fuck.
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1Yeah that's unbelievable. But please, if he eventually does come back, tell him to go and get fucked.
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2Sorry you had to deal with this guy using you as his security blanket and moving service. He probably found a Mississippi girl, and being a guy, couldn't say no to her or be honest with you.
Go ahead and share your transition with friends/family. You need a shoulder to cry on at this point.
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3Absolutely shitty. Some people just don't appreciate true devotion. You said you endured because you had no idea what he was going through in Iraq, and the same goes for you. He has no idea what you went through to stay true to him. Let him know that and get your closure.
And #2 is right, you need to tell your family about this, it sounds as though you could use some support from the people close to you.
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4Stupid people get in relationships while in the army or with someone in the army. Just plain stupid.
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5ohh honey i'm so sorry : (
maybe the way to look at this situation is now you know what YOU are capable of. eventually the sting of this will wear off and you've proven (above and beyond) that you're capable of true commitment and enduring love no matter what. you'll be a wonderful wife when you find the right man who can return that kind of devotion of which you're capable! most people wouldn't have been able to go through what you went through. they would've cut things off with him while he was still deployed considering long-distance relationships are already difficult, and on top of that he was taking his anger out on you through long-distance telephone calls
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6I feel for you. Sounds like something that would happen to me. That's why I'm so guarded. I've been fucked over enough in my life already and I'm not that old.
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7#4, you don't choose who you fall in love with, and you know that. so hush :P
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8i have known a lot of men in the military. every one has cheated on deployment.
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9I want to say thanks to everyone who commented. I talked to my mom and step dad about it this afternoon. They were really supportive, and they're flying me out to see them next weekend. So that's positive.
Sigh. Life has to go on, right? It's just that I had never wanted to get married or have kids until I met him. And his love made me reconsider. I feel so foolish. But I know I'll find a way to forgive myself and let him go and be happy.
#4, Have fun growing up, doll. It's going to be a real wake up call for you.
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10not enough phone sex maybe??
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11www.911tellus.com
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