20 yrs of her
My mum is a heartless person. In general~ self obessed. I knw ur prob thinkin "thats nought compared to some parents and their doings out there".True. but consider this. ...
i am the eldest. Since i was born- i have had two homes.. my mums~ and my father's parents. my grandparents. i was under court order to visit them every 4nite weekend. whilst round their's i'd be lively, while round mums- i was meek, apologetic, fearful of her.
i followed up my visits til i was 16.. even tho mum fought to remove the order at 7. i still went. life round mums got harder as i became a teen~ the intensity of the arguements- battle of will- grew.
On more than 1 occasion she held my up against my neck. taking my GCSE exams was hell. .. . I was locked up - altho more emotionally than anything. I am unable to hold my stance in a arguement, i still repeatedly apologise, meek and yeilding to this day becoz of my upbringing.
i was able to move out due to my ex~ and his "disgusting "ways (he was bi)- yes, she called me disgusting.
and i went straight into the arms of my grandparents. they took me in~ housed me~ and helped me get to uni. i am forever in their debt and gratitiude. mum still hardly cares for me, i am unable to contact my lil brother much- as it has to be thro her. she does not care for my uni, life. all about her- and wat she's done. every visit round to hers silences me emotionally, as the past creeps up on my mind. and SHE wants respect and love from me??
Everytime she says i love you- i can't respond, coz i don't love nor respect her... bday cards~ mothers day~ xmas.. is hell to buy for her.. coz it is meaningless for me.
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1I feel sympathy for you, I truly do. You've obviously had a hard life and it has deeply and maybe irreversibly affected you.
But seriously, learn to spell.
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2the internet isnt english class, #1
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3^ It's hard to feel sympathy if I can't read what it says.
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4i feel for you, i do. you've had it tough and obviously it still affects you... but i got a headache trying to read this and all i could think was "this person is in uni?" ... sorry, but it's hard to sympathize when you're trying to focus on what's being said.
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5Sounds like the people I have had in my family. On that basis, I sympathize. But seriously, I can't sympathize much when I can hardly understand what you are saying because of your horrid communication skills.
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6I sympathize with you, but i wish I knew what uni meant?
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