I feel like crap
I feel so worthless. I've gained all this weight and won't even do things I have time and the means to do to lose it. I don't spend quality time with my husband bc I feel like shit all the time. I feel like a fraud at work that people think I'm okay but I'm really stupid and inept and lazy and that they all know that or will find out soon. I feel like I don't deserve thethings I have- my too-hot-for-me husband (honestly I am 40 lbs overweight, and he could bea model in looks and physique) and I dont deserve myjob, I just spoke well at the interview and they hired me, I don't deserve anything. I just keep doing shit to myself to sabotage myself. Sometimes I imagine my husband cheating on me or wanting to cheat with a young coworker or going to bars or strip clubs or whatever. I know that by pushing him away I could almost be doing a self fulfilling prophesy. Ive been in therapy for years and I know my parents messed me up. Today Im just in such a funk I dont know what to do.Rating:3.00
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your parents messed you up? at one point or another in life darling ya gotta take responsibility for your own life and actions...shit happens life, and bad parents are one of this shitty things - but you can't blame your entire life on them, less you find yourself in your current predicament...takes work, effort, and love to come out of where you are.
Posted 1 year ago | Report
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You're complaining about 40 lbs when my wife's goal is to lose 150? You need to pay more attention to your therapist. True, your parents may have helped in forming your low self esteem, but you were a partner in it. No one can be made to feel inferior without their permission.
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Don't let your low self-esteem hold you back. Every one has potential. Identify something you can do well and have FUN doing it. Visit sick people, take care of a relative. Stay away from negative people. Get back on track now, get focused, once you build yourself up a little then work on the weight issue a little at a time. Maybe find a different therapist too.
Posted 1 year ago | Report
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you should cheat on your husband. the added confidence of knowing that another man whats to jump your bones will carry over into the other areas of your life
Posted 11 months ago | Report
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The first comment is right on.
Take responsibility for your own actions. Nothing will change until you own up.
Posted 11 months ago | Report
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www.interfaithoutreachhome.org
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your parents messed you up? at one point or another in life darling ya gotta take responsibility for your own life and actions...shit happens life, and bad parents are one of this shitty things - but you can't blame your entire life on them, less you find yourself in your current predicament...takes work, effort, and love to come out of where you are.Posted 1 year ago | Report
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You're complaining about 40 lbs when my wife's goal is to lose 150? You need to pay more attention to your therapist. True, your parents may have helped in forming your low self esteem, but you were a partner in it. No one can be made to feel inferior without their permission.Posted 1 year ago | Report
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Don't let your low self-esteem hold you back. Every one has potential. Identify something you can do well and have FUN doing it. Visit sick people, take care of a relative. Stay away from negative people. Get back on track now, get focused, once you build yourself up a little then work on the weight issue a little at a time. Maybe find a different therapist too.Posted 1 year ago | Report
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you should cheat on your husband. the added confidence of knowing that another man whats to jump your bones will carry over into the other areas of your lifePosted 11 months ago | Report
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The first comment is right on.Take responsibility for your own actions. Nothing will change until you own up.
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www.interfaithoutreachhome.orgPosted 3 months ago | Report
