Four years and nothing to show
It's been five years since I met you. For the past four I've been head over heels for you, and for the past four years you've shut me down. It took me two and a half to work up the balls to ask you out, and since then it's been a rollercoaster of highs and lows. We get closer, then you ask if I still want you, and explode on me when I say yes, and then we move further apart. If I can keep that question from your lips for long enough we can be amazing friends. Hell, regardless of that I secretly call you my best friend. Were I to actually tell you how much I trust you, how comfortable and happy you make me, how much more I care about you than anyone else, you would tell me how awkward it makes things for you when you don't feel the same; I am second to her. I know this, and I keep quiet.Everyone else has told us we should at least date. Your mother, your sister, my mother, my father, my brother, every one of our friends save a few; even people who barely even know us can see there is something there. Only you refuse to see it. I am going to give it one more try next year, and if the answer is still no I will have to admit defeat and see where I can go from there.
I have checked my own morals to somehow try to better my chances with you. You say you want a man who saves himself for marriage; I have honored that even though I don't feel the same way. I have even passed up kissing any other girl these past years for fear you would reject me knowing I was too liberal for your tastes. I have sacrificed for you, and any time I try to reap the smallest benefit of my sacrifice I am rejected. Not even a kiss on the cheek.
You will never know exactly how I am feeling or how I have felt these past several years. A mix of awe and disgust and reverence and desire and anger and love and hate.... the list goes on and on and even this vent does not begin to describe my desire for you. I don't have the slightest idea if you've ruined me or saved me... I hope to let you know some small part of it one day.
I love you.
Rating:5.00
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You should be telling her this, not us!!!!
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If you tell her this, she'll run away.
Tease her and walk away, she'll run to you.
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Wow
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Man up and bang the shit out of her. Then go fuck another chick in front of her.
Otherwise, eat a bullet.
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You need to read a book on how to be an alpha male. It's by John Alexander. Google it.
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You said "It took me two and a half years to work up the balls to ask her out." Should have asked her out way sooner. After that much time, she's has become acclimated to the relationship being just friends. Like an acquaintance that you just hang out with. She's obviously torn between commitment and "just a friend." In the back of her mind, she's wondering why you took so long to actually ask her out and probably because of this thinks you're not serious.
You also mentioned "I am going to give it one more try next year." Uuuuuuhm.... Okay, so you're going to wait that long. Sounds to me that you feel you have invested too much time to declare defeat.
Well dude, your just going to have to tell her you wished that you asked her out much sooner and let her know how you feel about being more than just friends. But then that might throw a wrench into her emotional mechanics that she has hard-wired into her from this relationship. If you do express your true feelings, make sure the mood is right. This means observe to make sure mood is calm. Post #2 stated the risk. So yeah, be careful or that rope you've been dangling from could snap and you'll hit the ground hard and it will hurt for a while
Good luck with that.
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Rape her.
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#7 omg, wtf, lol
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Uhmmm... wow. just STOP calling her. STOP seeing her. STOP pining over her. She will come back sooner or later. Us women are somewhat retarded. I will not deny that. We want what we cant have, and we dont know what we lose until its GONE. move on for a little while. then when she comes back, go from there.
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Lol #7.
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#9 is right, but why are women like that ???? their mysteries never cease to amaze me....
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Five years?
How many times do you have to slam your nutsack in a car door before you realize it hurts and stop doing it?
Apply this wisdom and get away from this bitch.
Or, just fuck her sister, that'll get her riding your jock immediately.
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Man, i feel for you
I really do.
I am in the same boat, i am trying to ignore her, but my impulses of missing her get the best of me.
I dont understand, i always thought if you like someone or miss them, tell them.
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You should be telling her this, not us!!!!Posted 2 months ago | Report
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If you tell her this, she'll run away.Tease her and walk away, she'll run to you.
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WowPosted 2 months ago | Report
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Man up and bang the shit out of her. Then go fuck another chick in front of her.Otherwise, eat a bullet.
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You need to read a book on how to be an alpha male. It's by John Alexander. Google it.Posted 2 months ago | Report
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You said "It took me two and a half years to work up the balls to ask her out." Should have asked her out way sooner. After that much time, she's has become acclimated to the relationship being just friends. Like an acquaintance that you just hang out with. She's obviously torn between commitment and "just a friend." In the back of her mind, she's wondering why you took so long to actually ask her out and probably because of this thinks you're not serious. You also mentioned "I am going to give it one more try next year." Uuuuuuhm.... Okay, so you're going to wait that long. Sounds to me that you feel you have invested too much time to declare defeat.
Well dude, your just going to have to tell her you wished that you asked her out much sooner and let her know how you feel about being more than just friends. But then that might throw a wrench into her emotional mechanics that she has hard-wired into her from this relationship. If you do express your true feelings, make sure the mood is right. This means observe to make sure mood is calm. Post #2 stated the risk. So yeah, be careful or that rope you've been dangling from could snap and you'll hit the ground hard and it will hurt for a while
Good luck with that.
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Rape her.Posted 2 months ago | Report
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#7 omg, wtf, lolPosted 2 months ago | Report
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Uhmmm... wow. just STOP calling her. STOP seeing her. STOP pining over her. She will come back sooner or later. Us women are somewhat retarded. I will not deny that. We want what we cant have, and we dont know what we lose until its GONE. move on for a little while. then when she comes back, go from there.Posted 2 months ago | Report
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Lol #7.Posted 2 months ago | Report
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#9 is right, but why are women like that ???? their mysteries never cease to amaze me....Posted 2 months ago | Report
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Five years?How many times do you have to slam your nutsack in a car door before you realize it hurts and stop doing it?
Apply this wisdom and get away from this bitch.
Or, just fuck her sister, that'll get her riding your jock immediately.
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Man, i feel for you I really do.
I am in the same boat, i am trying to ignore her, but my impulses of missing her get the best of me.
I dont understand, i always thought if you like someone or miss them, tell them.
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